“expectations”. one of those difficult things.

today, i had a conversation with a friend, and she said something interesting. she was saying that some people display who they are right away, and as their friend, you get used to it. the rest of us, you actually get to know, then you see all of that.

you know who you are. the girl who always says what’s on her mind. the boy who will tell you that your outfit is ugly, even if he doesn’t know you. the really mean girl who always gives you that bored look because she is indeed bored with you.

it’s interesting.

i am not that person. well, kinda.

hopefully.

i am someone you get to know.

yet, i am someone that you immediately have an opinion about [usually]

generally, i’d like to believe i’m likable, or at the very least, slightly entertaining.

but theres a problem.

usually, almost everyone who gets to know me well sees something different.

the good, the bad, the ugly that encompasses “vimbo-ness”.

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yes, sure, if you know me for only 5 minutes, i have no doubt i could charm you.

but be my friend for 5 years, and i might not be that charming.

I’M INSERTING A VERSE HERE, ON CUE:

“Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;

but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.”

Proverbs 31:30

ok, back to me.

this all lead me to some big questions, NOW, 9 1/2 hours before my final final,

when i should be a sleep. or studying. or something else expected.

my questions are this:

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what do i expect from myself

what do i expect from others

and what do i expect from God.

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ah. sometimes i hate growing up.

[this is to be expected.]

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[oh, oh, pick me, i know the answer to #3!]

love. i expect God to love me. crazy, huh?

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